to be loved; to be loved, what more could you ask for.

Note: If you’re just a casual reader of this blog, save yourself the trouble and scroll down to the bottom, where the important stuff is. Cheers.

This post is nearly four days overdue, but Happy New Year everyone. Let’s hope it’s  a good one without any fear.

Have you ever had the feeling somedays where you’re playing keepie-uppies with the whole world on your feet and you’re trying to keep it all up in the air, and you somehow get the feeling that you’re gonna drop the ball soon and you panick and bounce it extra hard to keep it in the air; and ironically its always that final desperate touch that loses you the ball and your whole world?

It fucking feels like a million things are pulling me apart at the same time, and I’m not man enough to justify myself to all those things and people that need me. I’m starting to feel like Jon Foreman’s opening line for Revenge all over again. 

There all so many people I should be accountable to right now but it seems as if everything is fucking up one after another, and I’m pulling all the stops and burning them out in an attempt to give everybody what they need, but somehow at the end of the day I fail everyone yet again.

I want to win. I want to get through the day without the feeling that I’m failing everyone. I want to light up something in all those people who mean something to me, but I can’t shake off this thought that I’m a bitter disappointment.

I wrestled the angel for more than a name, but now it seems as if I have nothing but.

Recent conversations have led me thinking about the events that wrenched me from and led me back to unfamiliar arms, and I can’t say I’m complete.

This blog is close to being abandoned, I think. I see no reason why people would want to come here and read about my need for Prozac.

Anyway.

AMR will be doing a series of acoustic sets for the DMSM Open House on the 8th and 10th of January, which will include covers, originals, and guest performers. Please do come down to support us and also take the chance to check out DMSM’s diploma offerings.

We’ll also be performing a live song on the 9th of January around nighttime, 8pm for the finals of NYP’s Got Talent. It will be an original song that we’re playing, and we’re dedicating it to the victims of the Mumbai terror attacks. So do please come down and support us, we promise an Awesome-on-a-Thomson-level show!